#88

lelaki: i think i'm in love with you?

gadis: no. please don't.

lelaki: but why?

gadis: because i think i don't deserve to be loved.

lelaki: it's always the same thing that come out from your mouth. that u don't deserve love.
that no one loves you. why?

gadis: i tell u what. love is everywhere. with anybody. but not with me. love isn't there for me.

lelaki: oh come on ... you have parents, siblings, friends, your parents love you, your siblings love       you and so does your friends. can you NOT feel the love?

gadis: my parent, they loves me because i am their daughter. because they have to. my siblings loves me because i am their sibling.because they have to. my friends loves me because they have to.because i am their friend. but i don't want to be loved by those connections. i feel no respect for myself.

i want to be loved as a person myself. as a human being. as nobody. as anybody.

lelaki: it seems like you've been rejecting everyone.

gadis: i don't know what it looks like to the others. but the thing is, i am building a wall for myself.

lelaki: can't you see that you feel that nobody loves you because you're not in love with yourself. stop doing those reckless thing to yourself. to your mind. to your soul. you'll end up hurting                       yourself in the end.

gadis: ......................

lelaki: you know what, i think you have forgotten about the most important thing in your life.

gadis: and what is that..

lelaki: that you have a creator. that you have been created by Him. His love is undeniable.

does you NOT love Him too?

gadis: ...long silent....

i've been waiting my whole life for a person like you. a person that will remind me about this             one greatest love.

The undeniable love.

thank you.

ps: the good and evil side of me talking to each other.